(in)Sanity

Today has been one of those days when everything seems off. I am grumpy (thanks aunt flo) and hardly got any sleep last night. The girls were up at 4:30 and jumped into bed with us. I we finally sent them back to bed and after about 10 times putting Autumn back in bed they finally slept, for about another hour. I woke up exhausted and with a short fuse. We were in a rush to get ready for Eli's doctor's appointment from the get go. The house is a total disaster, laundry is behind, dishes are dirty, table is messy. Eli got shots so he's been fussy. Autumn wouldn't take a nap until I put her back into her pack n play (she's been sleeping in the bottom bunk of the bunk beds) and Hannah, although very tired, never took a nap.  Eric is working the next 17 of 24hrs, his parents are coming tomorrow, and I've got to make this place presentable. This is just a perfect storm for me to loose my mind. I need to get a better system for cleaning, and I need to have some help from my family members!! I sometimes just feel like a maid, cleaning up behind everyone all day on top of making sure everyone eats, has a clean butt and clean clothes, and somehow I have to find time to go to the bathroom and shower myself! I'm sure once I'm less hormonal things won't seem half as bad, but today is totally insane.

You Know The Peace

You know the peace you feel when you have made a decision that took many days, months, years of deciding on, and you know it was the right decision? I've got that peace.

After exploring a preschool for Hannah we have decided that we are going to go forward with homeschooling. It feels like the right thing to do, 100%. I think the program was good, the school seemed great, but something inside me made it clear that it wasn't right for us. Since then I have become very intense on researching curriculum, co-ops, ideas and planning. I am hoping to start a preschool co-op this fall, and join a homeschool co-op next fall which has programs for all 3 children. I am so thrilled about this. I have so much I want to share with my children, so much I want to teach them, so many experiences I want them to have, and I get to have those experiences with them. They will not be burdened with homework, held back by the group, feel stupid for being "behind" or have their natural love of learning be stifled by "the system".

This week we got started, and Hannah is loving learning. We studied Matthew 1 and talked about family trees. She created her own and also planted a small branch. We also enjoyed learning about wells and how they work, since we had our well worked on today. She was so into it, and it makes me really proud to see her hunger to learn and ability to understand such complex things at age 4. She's incredible, and although she is feisty and opinionated, she is an amazing kid. I'm so blessed to be her mother.