Motivated?

I have been battling a lack of motivation this week. It is so hard for me to explain, it isn't just being tired, it is just a feeling of total inability to get anything done. The problem is, the clutter and dishes drive me absolutely bonkers. So I sit here, unable to get up and deal with it, while it drives me to insanity. Makes no sense right? I know. I could get 10hrs of sleep (although I don't) and still would feel so tired and unmotivated. I think partly to blame is the fact that Eric and I have not spent any quality time together all week. I work days, he works nights, and we just never get time to see each other. He is sleeping all morning and is just waking up when I am out the door. It is very frustrating, and I feel alone sometimes. It is hard to be a single mom! Eric is not able to contribute much to caring for the kids now, and although I am eternally grateful for the opportunity to be home with them, I still need a break sometimes! I don't know a good solution for it, but I hope one comes soon. Maybe he will start working days, that would be much better. I miss having family time together, and it would be nice to be able to load the dishwasher without a kid hanging on my leg or feeling so tired from the day that I can't keep my eyes open. I have to remind myself, this is just a short season in our lives. I need to appreciate it for all that it is, even if it is hard. God has been so gracious to me, and given me a gift I never expected to receive. Before I know it my babies will be grown and leave me, and I will wish I had a little one hanging on my leg while I load the dishwasher. OK, now I'm crying....time to be done!