Taking The Leap

When God speaks to me, it is always very clear. It is usually at night, when I'm laying in bed, and usually after I've been praying for a while. And almost always, if He wants me to change something I'm doing, or do something else, He won't let me stop thinking about it until I make a decision to deal with the issue. Lately, I've had one clear thought that I can't get away from:

I am way too addicted to facebook

I check it at least 3x a day, usually much more. I don't even know what I'm looking for, but usually it is me trying to fill a place of lonliness I feel. Reading someone else's status makes me feel like they are actually speaking to me, but in reality, facebook is just a way to pretend you have friends. Yes, it does help me keep in touch with family and friends that I normally wouldn't know anything about, but it doesn't take the place of a phone call or an email/letter. If I get comments on my status or photos, I feel like people care about me, or they are interested in what I have to say. And if I don't, I reason that no one cares about me, or they think I'm an idiot. It is all very silly.

I've also been feeling that I need a better way to communicate and document my thoughts, family activities, prayers, ideas, etc.

SO, I am considering leaving facebook and solely blogging from now on. I know the people who care about me most will read my blog if they want to keep up with me. I may just use facebook as a means to communicate with others (play dates, events, etc), but not for my own status updates. I place too much concern on "who will comment on my photo" or "what will so and so think about this status" and it is a little ridiculous. I know the blog trap is very similar, but at least I can make full paragraphs and not just 1 sentence blurbs about the weather. My life is much more than that! Plus, I don't really need people to read what I'm writing, it is mostly for me. I want to have a documentation of my life, my prayer requests, answers to prayers and watching my kids grow up. I haven't fully made a decision yet, but I am strongly leaning toward it. I'm sorry to all of the people who enjoy following my weather complaints and "I'm too tired to do housework" complaints on facebook. I'm sure you have some other people on your friend's list who will take my place. If you have any thoughts, feel free to comment...lol, just kidding.